Abhey Gupta

Tag: longing

longing

  • The Deep Well

    I watch, still, but everything else is moving fast;
    I turn my head, and the world is lightning, painted red. I push into the deep well, though I know its depth;
    I wonder what time is, and what the height of success is —
    and I witness the fliers of the skies.

  • The Key to What I Am

    I am the sea of thoughts, the dusk of the herd;
    I am a message of love, a traveler of the world. To someone I am a single word, to another I am everything —
    but still I am looking for the key to what I am.

  • I Hold Her Dreams

    I look at her and lose myself, and she smiles and laughs at my madness;
    I hold her dreams as if I were her dream. She watches me in secret and never admits she did;
    I weave a dream, and she travels through it, never wanting to turn back —
    and love goes on, with my every word.

  • She Comes from Dreams

    She comes from dreams and sits beside me as I sleep;
    she hides, yet her world seeks my eyes as they glance at her. She lingers, trying me with her smile, till I am lost in its depth —
    she speaks in silent words, and I wonder, and I listen.

  • When I Wonder

    I am slowly stepping into your shadow in the moonlight,
    and the wind is blowing wild tonight;
    I am alone, searching for you in every thought,
    wondering what it would be like if you were here.

    I wish to hold your arms
    and kiss you till the last ray of moonlight;
    I pause every moment just for you,
    wondering — how would it be, if life got this real?

    I stare back at the moon, again and again,
    just to catch a glance of your eyes;
    they pierce through my every thought a while,
    and make me wonder how deep I am lost in them.

    I look around for you, but you are everywhere —
    in my breath, in my soul, in my eyes;
    and I close my eyes and wonder
    how I wake up in your arms every time.

  • ख़ामोश नज़र

    जब वो ख़ामोश नज़र से मुझे देखती है,
    कुछ कहते-कहते न जाने कहाँ खो जाती है।

    जब मैं उससे नज़रें मिलाकर कहता हूँ —
    “कुछ तो बात है जो आप बताना चाहती हैं,”

    झुकी हुई पलकों से वो मुँह मोड़ लेती है,
    फिर धीरे से, एक झूठ ही सही, बोल देती है।

    कुछ कहना होता तो कह देती,
    पर न जाने क्यों, यह बात मुझे बेमानी लगती है।

  • वो एक मुस्कुराहट

    जब कभी मैं ख़ामोश होता हूँ,
    किसी दुख के अँधेरे में खो-सा जाता हूँ —
    मुझे एक आवाज़, एक हँसी सुनाई देती है:
    वो एक तुम्हारी मुस्कुराहट…

    लगता है, एक आदत-सी हो गई है
    मुझे सपनों में गुम हो जाने की —
    इसलिए, कि मुझे मिली थी वो ख़ुशी,
    शायद वो तुम्हारी एक मुस्कुराहट की…

    कभी-कभी चेहरों में ढूँढता रहता हूँ,
    मिल जाए मुझे फिर वैसी कोई हँसी —
    मगर नहीं, कोई मिली अभी तक:
    वो एक मुस्कुराहट — जानी-अनजानी — मेरी एक दोस्त की…

  • Your Answer

    This is for someone I have come to know — someone who has become a part of my world. To give a name to every relationship is difficult, so in the verse below I try to express a few of my untouched memories with that person — without, of course, disclosing her name.

    I often say a few words,
    but your answer silences my world.
    When I stand, sad, in a corner,
    your unspoken touch heals me.

    I set things wrong for myself,
    but you correct them, and feel me;
    I hide, trying to run from life,
    and you come close, and love me.

    When I ask, “Who am I to you?”
    I hear your unanswered, eternal truth.
    My friend — do I matter to you?
    Your eyes ache just to hear it.

    I searched for a truth, and for you —
    and God gave me both, in you.
    And when I call you with my silence,
    once again, your answer silences my world…

  • The Moon

    It sits so gently in the sky,
    looking down at me and saying,
    “I care about you, my friend;
    I am missing you, my lover.”
    A million voices call to it —
    the moon, but still so silent, and alone…

    “I am something for you, everything for you;
    look at me, and weave your dreams.
    I am into you, without a clue —
    don’t look away, I hold dreams for you.”
    I hope not to rule, but as a friend, to help you —
    the moon, but still so fascinating, so thrilling…

    “I am far away from you in distance,
    but I am there, inside your heart;
    your lover asks me to care for you,
    and you ask me to look out for her.
    I am the keeper of souls — for them” —
    the moon, shining slyly with the sun’s light…

    “I am love, and a vampire’s temple;
    I hold the depth of the sea, the plains of darkness.
    I owe a favor to repay — a dark night of eclipse,
    to live one endless night, and lay down all my pride,
    looking for a place to face my loneliness” —
    the moon, the high sky’s hope of harness…

  • Dreams to Reality

    I had a dream of having thee —
    not just anyone, but the most special one.
    Shakily, I said those three words to thee,
    and I owe my life to loving you.

    In the moment of that special day,
    you moved my dreams into reality;
    out from my soul, I cried that day too —
    not from sorrow, but from the joy of having thee.

    How much I love you cannot be expressed,
    yet the love I hold can never be suppressed;
    the time and the things I shared with you —
    the best of all of it is all because of you.

    The more I give, the more of you I have,
    and I am living, from dreams into reality.
    Now I wonder where you are, or if you feel alone —
    do you miss me, as I am missing you?

    Every moment I spend, I spend with you;
    now my life is nothing without you.
    I can feel you inside my head,
    I can see you, right next to me.

    All the love and care you give to me
    have touched my dreams into reality;
    I wish your every pain and sorrow could be mine —
    just you, and all because I love you.