Abhey Gupta

Tag: Meaning

  • Live & Die

    Live & Die

    I thought this time I’d get through it, but like the cycle of day and night, I am bound to fall again and again. Wondering what is so devious about it. I heard, “Take a bow and trigger it. You will get to know the arrow.” Principles to restrict, but all they do is fall blatantly. I wonder what’s in the bog of time; all I know is to fill me with something special to realize who I am. To the end, what it takes to get through all the chaos and live.

    I believe, a will to live and die.

    Living in a Mess

    I am confused all through. I am drifting apart from the regular me. I am forgetting the difference between good and bad, as I was always perplexed by it. To my situation, to my path, often celebrating the tears of sadness. If I am all the devil, I assume, I wonder what is next in the hellfire that I’m living in. Yet, call it a life to choose between two, is another lie. I’m surrounded by clouds of lies. Often I want to break free of all, but lies are all they are. But that’s all I’ve got for now.

  • Beginnings & Endings

    There is a Coldplay song — “The Scientist” — that I have been listening to for a long time; and every time, it hits me hard, and makes me wonder about beginnings and endings.

    Is it merely a concept — a particular thing happening within the framework of time? Or are we actually bound by some existential feeling, about the metaphysical boundary of beginning and end?

    I know there is no single answer to it — just like Albert Einstein’s efforts toward a Theory of Everything. But still, I choose to believe that we can work in the direction of understanding the concept behind it.

  • Peace of Mind

    Another day.

    I was delusional, and lost; my wandering mind was trying to contemplate the word “peace,” and its purpose in the context of life. I started reading some articles on spiritual awakening, and later succeeded in reading about Kundalini Tantra — but somewhere in there, my wandering mind was unstoppable in trying to understand the purpose of life, and the many variables tied to it. So I began listening to some lectures, and, as a result, I found a talk by Osho on “Peace of Mind.”

    I found it really interesting. Listen, if it calls to you — and share what you feel.

  • Why Do We Seek It?

    This is the most important question we need to understand — because the why, and the what, behind my saying that everyone is looking for a single end goal (whether they realize it or not) is the very answer that moves us closer to it.

    Suffering is the primary motive at work here. There could be many others, but for the sake of simplicity, am I considering a single motive? I would say yes, and no — because suffering itself is not simple to explain, and it does not even refer to a single thing, or a single action.

    So now the big question is: what is suffering? Is it something we don’t want, or don’t desire? Is it love, hate, or both? Is it hope, despair, or both?

    Pretty confused? So was I — and that is exactly where the search begins.

  • What Is Moksha?

    The question is not about understanding the meaning of Moksha, but about understanding the underlying concept of liberating your state of mind.

    Moksha — also called vimoksha, vimukti, and mukti — is a term in Hinduism, Buddhism, Jainism, and Sikhism that refers to various forms of emancipation, enlightenment, liberation, and release. (Wikipedia)

    But Moksha is not just a word discovered by saints or sadhus; it is, rather, a quiet part of everyone’s life. Believe it or not, everyone around us is working toward a single end goal — call it Moksha.

    What is more important is to understand how easily we choose to ignore it, and mistake one of our milestones for the end goal of life.

    The beauty of it is this: how many times have we wondered why we aren’t happy after achieving something we longed for so long? Why success so often comes with the sadness of it being over? Why it is so hard to come to an end?

    Think again — and I hope you will realize that these were never the real end goals. Moksha was.

    Everything we are attached to is one step toward it. And we will look for the longer answer together, in the articles to come.

  • ज़िन्दगी का खेल

    ज़िन्दगी भी मस्त खेलती है —
    मैं चलना सीखता हूँ, ये भागने लगती है;
    मैं भागना सीखता हूँ, ये रुक जाती है;
    मैं रुकना सीखता हूँ, ये बदल जाती है;
    मैं बदलना सीखता हूँ, ये समझ नहीं आती;
    मैं समझना सीखता हूँ, ये उलझ जाती है;
    मैं सुलझाना सीखता हूँ — ये फिर चलने लगती है।
    मैं फिर चलना सीखता हूँ…

  • My Purpose, Her Smile

    Just like another day, I was wondering about my purpose in life, and I lost myself into sleep with a deep thought — and woke to find my arms wrapped by another’s: though invisible, yet so invincible; though bitter sometimes, yet sweeter than any sweet. And I found myself in another complex — yet I found my purpose: her smile.

  • Life in If and Else

    One peaceful Monday morning, having ravishing food and enjoying a big brand name, I drifted slightly from my sober sight, and tried to explore the real-life meaning of adaptability and acceptability.

    And I drooled myself to sleep — only to be woken by office colleagues whispering that some senior was coming near. I woke with such a pace that I could have won a medal for it; I found my keyboard and mouse, and started staring blankly at my screen — at some import statements, instances, static members, and condition statements declared.

    If, and else? I was astonished — our life is also like this.

    Multiple ifs and elses: we call them planning, or restrictions. Instance variables are your relatives; static members are your family; and import statements are like education, degrees, friends, and so on. So our life is actually the execution of some code — in terms of if and else, deciding what will happen next — and problems arise with multiple executions, if multithreading is supported, and with all the advice, like annotations, directing our path.

    Multiple ifs and elses: if money, then switch — buy item one; and if money is greater than some amount, then buy this. If money is… and so the code of life keeps running.

  • Adaptability

    It’s weird, but I find it logical to think about how we learned to work five or six days a week, waiting for the one day off that relieves us — and then, the same trained, programmed routine again. It sounds to me like a circle of things: back to where I started, screaming for the day off, living in hell under pressure — and soon, we adapt to it so well.

    We cry about the boredom of routine and want change in life; yet the slightest chance of change tremors our so-called peace, and we want things just as they were.

    So this is how I define adaptability — and acceptability.

  • जाने क्या बात है

    जाने क्या बात है, आज गुनगुना-सा मिज़ाज है;
    बता पाना तो चाहता हूँ, पर न जाने क्या बात है, जो रोके जा रही है फिर भी।

    कुछ तो है इस वक़्त के दरमियाँ —
    मेरी एक छोटी-सी और कहानी, लफ़्ज़ दो लफ़्ज़ की एक और जवानी।

    जाने क्या बात है, विरत-सा मन आज है;
    चंद लम्हे ही तो थे, न जाने मन क्यों उदास है।

    रुख़ से, रुक-रुक के आते तो हैं,
    पर ज़ुबान समझ नहीं पाती, क्या बात है।

    एक और किस्सा-सा लगने लगी है अब मुझे मेरी ज़िन्दगी;
    जाने क्या बात है — याद भी है, साथ भी;
    न कोई रूठा है, न जुदा;
    बस, वक़्त के साथ दिल से एक ख़ुशी नहीं,
    और आस-पास सब बेकार-सा है — न जाने ऐसी क्या बात है…