Abhey Gupta

Tag: Devotion

  • इश्क़, याद और तुम

    1.
    कुछ ख्वाहिशों की तमन्ना जरूर है दिल में,
    लेकिन तेरी खुशी से ऊपर कुछ भी नहीं।

    2.
    तुम संग कुछ यूँ उलझे, खुद को ही भूल गए।

    3.
    तेरी यादों को कुछ इस तरह सँजो के रखा है,
    अपना शहर भी बेगाना हो गया,
    दोस्तों की महफ़िल भी तन्हा हो गई।

    4.
    सोचता हूँ तुमसे शिकायतें करूँ,
    फिर तुम्हें हंसते देख सब भूल जाता हूँ

    5.
    लफ्ज से अक्स तक बस अब
    तुम्हारे प्यार के कैदी हैं।

    6.
    गुस्से में अक्सर वो हमारे गले लग जाती है,
    और भी ज़माने भर के शिकवे यूँ ही भूल जाती है।

    7.
    किसी रोज़ मंदिर में दिया ना जले तो मान लेना,
    तुम्हें आज हमने याद नहीं किया

    8.
    वक्त देखा तो एक पहर बीत गया था,
    लेकिन तुम्हारी याद अभी ताज़ा थी।
    सोचा कुछ करें और बाहर चलें,
    निकले ही थे, तुम वहाँ भी मिल गई।

    9.
    तुमने तो कह दिया कि मुझे भूल जाओ,
    घर दोस्त जो भुला दिए तुम्हारे लिए वो?

    10.
    किसी रोज़ आऊंगा तो एक तोहफा लाऊंगा,
    आज भी दिल में छुपा के रखा है तुम्हारी हंसी को।

    11.
    तुम्हें सोचता हूँ हर रोज़,
    लेकिन अब और नहीं…

    12.
    अरसो पुरानी एक आरज़ू,
    गुफ्तगू हो और जुस्तजू भी।

    13.
    अब तुम्हारे होने की ऐसी आदत हो गई है, तुम नहीं होती तो अधूरी सी हो जाती है जिंदगी।

    14.
    तुम याद करोगी तो बहुत कुछ बोलूंगा,
    खैर छोड़ो कल की बातें,
    अब तुम्हें बस ये इतला कर दूं,
    अब फिर से तुमसे उम्मीद करने लगे हैं…

    15.
    दिल ने जब-जब इस दुनिया को टटोला,
    कुछ उलझे रिश्ते और कुछ रूठे हुए प्यार ही पाए…

  • एक ख़्वाहिश

    एक ख़्वाहिश मेरे मन की —
    बारिश हो… और तुम।

    घबराई-हुई-सी एक साँस,
    जो तुम्हारी धड़कनों से टकराकर
    अपनी रफ़्तार भूल जाए;
    कंधा मेरा हो… और सिर तेरा,
    जैसे थककर तुमने दुनिया छोड़ दी हो।

    तुम और मैं —
    एक भी, दो भी;
    भीगते हुए तुम्हारे बाल,
    और मेरे हाथ…
    जो उन्हें सुलझाते-सुलझाते
    तुममें ही उलझ जाएँ।

    वक़्त का पता हो भी… और नहीं भी;
    हर पल ठहरता हुआ,
    हर लम्हा फिसलता हुआ;
    जुस्तजू हो दिल की क़रीबी की,
    हर कोशिश — तुम्हें जानने की,
    और उसी में, अपने दिल को पहचानने की।

    दुनिया से कहीं दूर,
    तुममें यूँ खो जाने की,
    कि लौटने का रास्ता भी याद न रहे।

    ख़लिश हो… तेरे पास आने की,
    और डर भी — कि ये दूरी कहीं हमेशा की न हो जाए;
    डरते हुए तेरा हाथ पकड़ने की,
    जैसे छूट गया, तो सब कुछ बिखर जाएगा।

    तुझे खो देने की बेचैनी भी,
    तुझे पा लेने की बेबसी भी;
    तुझे भूल जाने की हर कोशिश,
    और हर कोशिश में, तुझे और गहराई से पा लेना।

    तेरे लिए ख़ुद को भूल जाने की,
    और उस भूल में, ख़ुद को पहली बार पा लेने की।

    दुनिया को छोड़ देने की;
    तेरे लिए गीत नहीं… अपनी ख़ामोशी तक गुनगुनाने की;
    तेरे लिए कुछ नहीं… सब कुछ कर जाने की।

    और फिर… उस सब के बाद भी,
    एक अधूरी-सी तड़प के साथ —
    फिर एक बार नहीं, हर बार,
    तुझसे प्यार करने की।

  • I Wish I Could

    I wish I could ease the weight you are carrying, and see your smile return again.
    I wish I could sit beside you for a while, and bring you a little quiet comfort when the world feels heavy.
    I wish I could hold your trembling hands, and let them rest until they become calm again.

    You are not weak — not even a little. Sometimes life simply becomes too heavy for a moment, and anyone would feel lost.

    Today, when you were sitting in the car, feeling sad, and I ran out of words — this is what I truly wanted to say. Sometimes the heart knows what it wants to express, but the words arrive later.

    Sometimes, I simply wish I could take a small part of your pain, and carry it for you — so the road ahead feels a little lighter.

  • काश बता पाते

    काश बता पाते तुम्हें,
    इतना ही जता पाते,
    चाहते ना चाहते समझाते बुझाते,
    कितनी मोहब्बत करने लगे हैं।
    रोज़ एक नई उम्मीद सी उमड़ती हो,
    थोड़ा प्यार देती तो बगीचा ही बन जाते,
    पहले शब्द नहीं अक्स बतलाते,
    समझ जाती नहीं तो आंखों में दिखाते।
    एक दिन झुकी नजरों को देखोगी,
    सोचा था खुद ही समझ जाओगी,
    आजकल तुम्हें देखती भी नहीं,
    खैर छोड़ो, अब जान लो…
    कितनी मोहब्बत करने लगे हैं तुमसे…

  • Special Is You

    Today, I woke up with you beside me. I didn’t notice anything unusual; I didn’t feel anything special. Then you reminded me — it’s the 12th of August, our sixth-month anniversary.

    Oh god, I forgot it.

    Then I thought: how, and why? And now I know why — because with you, my every day is so special that I don’t feel anything “special” today. Special is you, to me — not a date. Special is your smile, not just a reminder.

    You are so special that I want to do everything for you. I didn’t feel anything unusual, because you are so usual to me; it is unusual, to me, that I am with you at all. Often, when you sleep, I lie by your side and watch you — and trust me, every time, I think of just one thing: that I am so lucky to have you. You are so unusual that I am still not sure how I got you.

    Babu, I love you.

  • Most Are About You

    I am a thunder of thoughts:
    some are worrying me,
    a few are caressing me,
    but most are about you…

    I am a sea of tides:
    some are touching me,
    a few are off-shoring me,
    but most are calling me toward you…

    I am a wind of swifts:
    some are drifting me apart,
    some are depriving me of you,
    but most are sweeping me to you…

    I am the one of many things:
    some I want to say to you,
    some I want to be understood,
    but most I want to hear from you…

    I am just a word in the dictionary:
    some are about love,
    some are about hate,
    but most, for me, are about you.

  • Happy New Year, My Love

    We are welcoming a new year, carrying so many beautiful memories of the last — and I am lucky enough to have one memory that will stay with me forever; and, as lovers say, till the end: you.

    Last year, on the same date, around the same time, I happened to be with my friends in Goa. While everyone was busy in drunken talk, I was looking at the waves on Baga beach. For a moment, I was filled with loneliness and solitude — but then your smile came across my thoughts, and I was calm, like the sea after the waves.

    The year 2015 gave me so much — so many memories — but the one I just told you will always be with me. We had many quarrels, and each one taught me one and only thing: that I can’t live without you. We made many important decisions of our life this year — telling each other’s parents, getting married, and being ready to do every small thing for it. I scared you many times with my anger, and I am hopefully looking to fix that in the coming year, for us.

    I am certainly not a very expressive person, but I will do everything for our small family — and for our extended family as well. I am not making any resolution this year, because I am very bad at keeping them; but I want to promise you one thing: I will put in every effort, for us. And I am looking forward to my most beautiful year, 2016 — because I am marrying you this year.

    I don’t express myself very often this way, but one of the many things you have improved in me, is this.

    Happy New Year, my love. I love you.

    I will embrace everything of yours — love or hate, care or anger, passion or quiet.
    I don’t love you only when you are loving, and caring, and sweet;
    I love you for everything:
    your angry face — I just want to tease you;
    your sad face — I just want to hug you;
    your tense face — well, you know.

    You are not something to me — you are everything.

    The farther I see you, the more I yearn for you;
    the closer I am with you, the more I fear losing you;
    an estranged desire to have you,
    and the little things I do to make you mine.
    The way I dream about you, the more I feel you;
    close or far, whatever you are,
    I imagine you mine, even more —
    and in the little things I do for love, I love you more.

  • I Allow You to Be Mine

    Thereby, I allow you to be mine —
    just mine, and always mine,
    and you shall be my forever,
    till you can feel me in your arms,
    no matter how far, but still in sight.

    Thenceforth, I allow you to make me happy:
    every time you smile,
    every day you are with me,
    everything you do for me.

    Henceforth, I give you my dreams, and my life —
    for each second, and each breath,
    for each night I spend with you,
    for each day I whisper: you are mine.
    Till you can feel me in your arms,
    no matter how far, but still in sight.

  • She Is the One

    A drive of solitude, and a lonely peace, made me think about her:
    who is she? Why do I love her so much —
    that, in spite of all our fights, I want her with me?

    She is the one who can drive me crazy, anytime.
    She is the one who can be the reason for my happiness, even in pain.
    She is the one who knows me — but never thinks it enough.
    She is the one who can tolerate all my weirdness, and still love me.
    She is the one who can hold my despair, and be the reason for my smile.
    She is the one who is my everything, with nothing else.
    She is the one who is the reason I feel love all around.
    She is the one — the only one.

  • Thank You So Much, Babu

    Thank you so much, babu —
    I just want you in my life,
    nothing else.